Strange connotations of the word "holidays"
Do you not wanted freedom when the exams are coming? Don't you want to get rid of those notes that you have read like thousands of times? It usually comes to a point when you just want to take the papers and get straight to the holidays. Haha.. That's so predictable for a student like me. But have you ever thought what happens after the exams? Do you really think that there's freedom at all after the exams? That you can play throughout the holidays and not worry about a thing? Let me draft out a list of what I think that there's something to be worried about(at least in my life).
Firstly, there's the stage of "unemployment" and getting music from your parents on the issue of "loathing". If you don't find a job, you'll probably not see the likes of the sunshine in the near future. I guess I would get deaf and have a trauma by the near July. The amount of working experience and jobs I had before clearly deprives me from getting a secured job right now. In fact, with so many other stuff in the holidays to cover, I can't possibly afford to give in too much time for the job. I'll get back on the "other stuff" later. Thus, getting a stint job may be a little bit harder than you think. The only experience I had was my clerical skills back in NS, which does not appeal to much employers. In fact, there's morejobs allocated for females than to males in the classified as well. Why not tutoring you ask... I can't tutor anyone. Trust me, the last thing you want to see is someone dying while trying to get 'tutored' by me. I lack discipline and well, I'm a little wishy washy. There isn't anyone who wants to be my experimentee anyway. So it's hard to get someone. Try the agencies you say... But there is this one other issue about tutoring is that I don't like having the feeling of letting my student and his/her parents down. I don't like teaching some by my way, and in the exams, he/she did not produce good grades as they expect from tutoring. You can say I'm picky in my job, but that's not entirely true. I always believe in involving myself in a job that I am sure to produce maximum output with minimum input. Because of this dilemma, I've decided to approach my professors whether I can be involved in his research, even though I won't be paid. I guess knowledge is more powerful and better than money itself. So why not?
Then there's this issue of not being able to go out as often as you wanted to. I've been staying at home most of my holidays now and only been out because I NEED to complete certain tasks. Damn.. That's so boring... In fact, I've been to the library more often than playing my games at home. In one way, it's good to be reading but on the other hand, I would like to do more activities than to read through out the holidays. With heavenly guards(my parents) by the door, I think getting out would prove more of a challenge than a game of Fatal Frame in the PS2. Somehow, not going out often saves me money, but it tends to make my body go lazy. Thus, I dislike staying at home too much.
Ah... The issue of my projects during the holidays - Science Orientation Week (SOW). This is yet the hardest issue to tackle as I've still yet to come up with a draft on some video taking. My inspirations have not come out and I'm kinda running out of time. Tee shirts have not be done and the logo have yet to be refined, getting things done can be a little tat difficult. May be I need more time management, or complete some of them during my time at home. But it's not as easy as you think. Science Camp (SCAMP) is around the corner as well and I have to prepare myself for the camp as well as the frightnight. Time is really against me...
What is the one thing guys dread during their free time in the holidays? Trust me, it's reservist. Well, not that I dread it, but the thing is I've yet to complete my IPPT. The expectations of yourself to get a gold is terribly disturbing. Just think, a difference between S$400 and S$200 is ... (Duh) S$200. There is so many things you can do with S$200. That is why I'm kinda worried in not achieving that goal. In fact, I'm suppose to be training every Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays by jogging but I've been rather lazy lately (See what I mean by staying at home too often?). Catching up on sleep makes me sleep even up till noon the next day. Which is bad. I always remember myself switching of the alarm and telling myself "maybe just rest a little while more" and then sleep again. I must get my bioclock readjusted soon...
So back to my title... Strange connotations.... Don't you think the word holidays is just an illusion that bluffs you in thinking you can get a rest from all those tiring work? In a way, it gives you more time to complete other tasks other than your schoolwork, but it still doesn't cut it when it comes to relaxation... Anyway, I just hope things get better soon... After all I've been through for the past 22 years, I think another few decades of this shouldn't be a problem...
Tired, Lazy and Bored
The Mixed Boy
Firstly, there's the stage of "unemployment" and getting music from your parents on the issue of "loathing". If you don't find a job, you'll probably not see the likes of the sunshine in the near future. I guess I would get deaf and have a trauma by the near July. The amount of working experience and jobs I had before clearly deprives me from getting a secured job right now. In fact, with so many other stuff in the holidays to cover, I can't possibly afford to give in too much time for the job. I'll get back on the "other stuff" later. Thus, getting a stint job may be a little bit harder than you think. The only experience I had was my clerical skills back in NS, which does not appeal to much employers. In fact, there's morejobs allocated for females than to males in the classified as well. Why not tutoring you ask... I can't tutor anyone. Trust me, the last thing you want to see is someone dying while trying to get 'tutored' by me. I lack discipline and well, I'm a little wishy washy. There isn't anyone who wants to be my experimentee anyway. So it's hard to get someone. Try the agencies you say... But there is this one other issue about tutoring is that I don't like having the feeling of letting my student and his/her parents down. I don't like teaching some by my way, and in the exams, he/she did not produce good grades as they expect from tutoring. You can say I'm picky in my job, but that's not entirely true. I always believe in involving myself in a job that I am sure to produce maximum output with minimum input. Because of this dilemma, I've decided to approach my professors whether I can be involved in his research, even though I won't be paid. I guess knowledge is more powerful and better than money itself. So why not?
Then there's this issue of not being able to go out as often as you wanted to. I've been staying at home most of my holidays now and only been out because I NEED to complete certain tasks. Damn.. That's so boring... In fact, I've been to the library more often than playing my games at home. In one way, it's good to be reading but on the other hand, I would like to do more activities than to read through out the holidays. With heavenly guards(my parents) by the door, I think getting out would prove more of a challenge than a game of Fatal Frame in the PS2. Somehow, not going out often saves me money, but it tends to make my body go lazy. Thus, I dislike staying at home too much.
Ah... The issue of my projects during the holidays - Science Orientation Week (SOW). This is yet the hardest issue to tackle as I've still yet to come up with a draft on some video taking. My inspirations have not come out and I'm kinda running out of time. Tee shirts have not be done and the logo have yet to be refined, getting things done can be a little tat difficult. May be I need more time management, or complete some of them during my time at home. But it's not as easy as you think. Science Camp (SCAMP) is around the corner as well and I have to prepare myself for the camp as well as the frightnight. Time is really against me...
What is the one thing guys dread during their free time in the holidays? Trust me, it's reservist. Well, not that I dread it, but the thing is I've yet to complete my IPPT. The expectations of yourself to get a gold is terribly disturbing. Just think, a difference between S$400 and S$200 is ... (Duh) S$200. There is so many things you can do with S$200. That is why I'm kinda worried in not achieving that goal. In fact, I'm suppose to be training every Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays by jogging but I've been rather lazy lately (See what I mean by staying at home too often?). Catching up on sleep makes me sleep even up till noon the next day. Which is bad. I always remember myself switching of the alarm and telling myself "maybe just rest a little while more" and then sleep again. I must get my bioclock readjusted soon...
So back to my title... Strange connotations.... Don't you think the word holidays is just an illusion that bluffs you in thinking you can get a rest from all those tiring work? In a way, it gives you more time to complete other tasks other than your schoolwork, but it still doesn't cut it when it comes to relaxation... Anyway, I just hope things get better soon... After all I've been through for the past 22 years, I think another few decades of this shouldn't be a problem...
Tired, Lazy and Bored
The Mixed Boy
posted by -=The Mixed Boy=- at 5/13/2006 07:49:00 PM
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