Should I or should I not...

I've been thinking for some time now... I know it's been just a little while since we've met. I know I have little confidence in myself. I hope she would excuse my behaviour.

But I don't know what to do now......

When I think of my future, I'm afraid that things won't go well... It makes me upset.

I wish I can find a solution to my pain... I don't want to let people wait, it's not my forte...

Confused and Upset
The Mixed Boy