Friday, July 04, 2008

Irritation

I don't know why my parents continuously want to irritate me. They keep treating me like a young boy, as if I can't do things myself. I don't even know why my family irritates me so much, why can't they just do things simple? What's up with them wanting to test for blood pressure with some stupid device, then when the stupid thing grips so tightly till my right arm can't move, my father thinks I was flexing. Then when he continuously ask me the same question, I just snapped back at him. Then with a reading of 118/81, it's considered normal for an adult, but my parents thinks it's too high. WTF. So they went for cardiovascular system course huh? I even think there's something wrong with the machine since takes very very long for a test to be conducted. If they think highly of their guesses, then why must I go for such a course in the first place. Plus, my mother says drink more water because I have "high blood pressure". Firstly, it's not even HIGH in the first place; secondly, even if it's high blood pressure, the more I shouldn't drink water because isotonic levels of water can elevate the pressure in the body... Geez, what's up with their "high-and-mighty" assumptions?

I noticed my temper shorten recently; I don't really like the feeling, but I can't escape the fact that there are people who are around to irritate me. I WANT to be tolerant, resounding to the fact that I don't like to scold in the first place. I hope I'd tame myself soon, I need to stay calm.

I haven't been talking much to Dada, I don't really know what to talk to her anymore. Neither did she had anything else to talk to me anymore besides the usual "how's your day?" or "have you eaten?". I guess it's already the time where things go back to normal again, back to the lonely days when I stare at the sky or the wall by myself, wondering what to do next or what's around me...

I want to emphasize that I DON'T like to scold, I hate scolding. It always leave me in the worst mood ever. I really wish I will change for the better. I'm still planning on what to do tomorrow...

The Mixed Boy

Geez...

Today I have an upsetting day:

1) I didn't know what I had to do in office
2) Recently people call me "fat" or "Baba"
3) My sister gave problems again
4) My father's friend said that my brother is very handsome, but reluctantly said that "not saying that you're aren't handsome" (Been hearing this sentence many times already, WTF)
5) Yet another couple is been born in my group of friends, leaving me the single one out again
6) Tomorrow I have a seminar, but I'm not sure of whether to go or not
7) Tomorrow's running day again, going to be a tiring day once again
8) (Eight is the lucky charm) My mother talked to me about certain things relating to my brother, relationships and me. I think they are all totally unrelated but part of each makes me demoralised since people always think I'm not as handsome as my brother or as others (Sux)

Does this really mean I'm really unlucky?

The Mixed Boy