Being sleepy is good, ZOO PRACTICAL FUN FUN FUN!!!

I think today is one of the strangest yet fun day of my whole sem. I stayed up till 3am plus to complete my lsm1101 notes as I've a test on the very same morning @ 1030hrs. I only started reading the day before because of project deadlines. Nervous and scared, I tried rushing through my notes, but the the thought of what Swami told us was rather intimedating. Thus, I continue reading. Unfortunately, from 2am - 3am, I was already sleeping, but with my eyes open. My brain wasn't functioning, but I was looking the the book. Hahaha... strange huh? I asked myself "WTH you still up for? If can't continue, just sleep. I can't care less for now..." Closed my book and jumped into bed.

I woke up about 0810hrs. I was still in the daze and groggy mood. I can't control my brain's function at all. I was literally a living zombie moving around the house. Rather fast one too. Hahaha.. But I took my bath and read through my notes one last time. Somehow there's something strange about one of the pages that Swami told us about. Besides the fact of the lipid metabolism, I was just too stressed out to memorised everything that is one the paper. I took my stuff and left for school.
The bus trip was alright. I met a practical mate that I didn't get to talk to very often. Her name was somehow modified by her Malay teacher when she was in her secondary school years. "Sayo" That's her name. Haha... So in Mandarin it's "sand oil" what does she want us to call her? Hahaha... Reached MPSH, the first thing that came to me were rumours of the previous day's event. Wasnt' what I wanted to hear, but can't control myself from rebuting their comments. Hmmmm... somehow not many people see things in a simplistic and sophisticated way. Enmity will lead to more enmity... ANYWAY, that's not what I'm blogging for... Hahaha... I knew I was going to sit somewhere in front of the test hall. And there I was, on seat number 180. The paper was out and we started doing. The miracle thing was that I found the paper rather understandable and I didn't have any difficulties on it. Maybe it was because I couldn't care less. Hahaha... I finished the paper in about 35minutes before checking over it one last time. I didn't manage to memorise everything in the notes that was required to answer the last question. Oh well... You win some you lose some. After the paper was collected, the prof mentioned the answers for the MCQ. Arrrrhhhhh... got one wrong... the answers were rather close. I knew I should have bet on the other question. Oh well... you win some..... I conclude, being sleepy during exams doesn't necessarily mean you'll do badly. Haha...
After the test, I went back to science fac to see my previous CA's mark. Crap... Wasn't what I hoped for but it's ok. Went back to clubroom to have a quick game of Zero hours before passing the laptop to my brother for his work. Oh no... No more games for tonight then... *sigh*... Besides, it was time for me to go for my practical... Zoological Gardens!!!! YEAH!!!! Been waiting for this for some time now. Though it's our last practical but I heard it's the best practical among the previous ones.
The place is very humid. Even with three-quaters and dri-fit shirt, you can still afford to sweat like a pig. I guess it's how it is cultivated to suit the animals there. So those intending to go there, don't mind the heat and sweat, the wonderful animals will pull your attention from the humidity. I don't think I can type everything in this blog because if I were to do that, I guess I would be typing till tomorrow. Hahaha... Anyway I'll just go through the main interesting experiences there.
You'll get to see so many animals and species around. *Duh...* Hahaha... But you never get to know more about them till now. Like the Puma doesn't roar at all even though it's a relatively big cat. It's species is linked more to the domestic cat. Cat hate water... Uh uh *shakes head*... It DOESN'T hate water... In fact, cats like the Jaguar swims to catch some preys. Only thing is just occasionally. Do you know that Lemur (the one you see in the movie 'Madagascar'? The King Julian? Hahaha...) is a less primate but it ressembles our feature as a primate. There's even this animal(I forgotten what name it is called) that would look around for enemies or for food before notifying their pack, by using different call signs, on how to react. There's also an area where animals are free to roam around even though humans are present. However, there's still a very big net covering the whole place to prevent animals from running away. Gotten to see the flying fox, mouse deer and butterflies. Did I mention about the gila monster? What's that you ask. It's a kind of venomous lizard. Hahaha... Unfortunately, our TA didn't explain why is it called like that (we were in a rush).

You should have been there I tell you... It was some interesting experience. Let me share this with you... We manage to see some black howling monkeys make a fool of themselves by calling out as if there was a women in distress. Hahaha.. My TA could hardly focus on what she wanted to say about the Maned wolf. Hahaha... Then there was the White Rhinoceros which pee in front of us. Wow, really looked like a running tap... Hahaha... Then you know what's the best part? After it was finished, the rhinoceros next to it came into the picture to smell the former's pee... Whao.. WTH... What does that have to mean? Then there was the famous Orang Utan which had a gunny sack on its back. As if it was some cloak or cape. Hahaha... Maybe it was just cold. And then the bird that sat on a thin piece of glass over at the Manatee's section. It was composed and calm. Interesting. Next, we went to see the Hamadryas Baboons. Wow, their ass cheeks are very big and red. But some of them are very like... Eeeeeeyer... Disgustingly big or somehow looked mutated. You can see it on the picture yourself. Oh my TA told us that when female are fertile for mating, their ass cheeks would turn bright red. In fact, there will be like a "king" (male baboon) in the pack that will move around, followed by many more females. They are like concubines to this very male baboon. Hmmmm..... You want to know the number one joke of the day? Haha.. We were going around the corner to catch a glimpse of the Spider monkey. Guess what? We managed to see a pair mating in the open. And I mean REALLY mating... The TA was talking and talking till she saw it too... Hahaha.. then we gawk before laughing among ourselves. The show was over when the monkeys turn their backs at us and stopped what they were doing. Awwwww... Hahaha... That's not what you see everyday right? Hahaha...

The day is done, now for our test. Before that, our TA asked us a question, "what animal is in the order carnivora, has carnassials but does not eat meat?" Do you know the answer? Look below for the answer:




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The answer is the Panda. It has carnassials, teeth adapted for shreding meat but eats only bamboo. Interesting...
Well, the test was rather easy. I know 4/5 questions. Woo hoo... I wished I knew the answer for the last question. Oh well... After the test, I got a drink from Ben and Jerry's before bording the bus back to school. *Do you know that a 'Mango and more' soothie is like S$7.90 THERE?!!!! So expensive*
Too bad there wasn't much things to do in school after that. None of the people I knew were there. Sigh.. Wanted to have dinner with someone but no one was there. So I went home. But I'm happy that I know how to do both CAs, just that I forgotten to memorised enough, and have so much fun in the Zoo. This is my last practical for biodiversity and with the same TA. I'm going to miss her. Sob... She's one fine lady who really knows her stuff and dare to venture. Hope to see her again. Now it's for me to go and have some games before I sleep or do some other things. I'll leave you all with this quote:

"The grass is ALWAYS greener on the other side"

Good night people...

Tired yet Happy
The Mixed Boy

ARRRHHH!!! So many things to do...

Arrhhhh.... I've not blogged for awhile because deadlines are like up my ass now. I've a project due this Friday and my team and I have just started like the day before. Oh no... Then there's a CA coming up this Friday which I can't help them. I'm so sad. I hope they can make it without me. I'm going to start on studying for the test now. It's Thursday, if I continue to delay, I don't know how much can I tackle the test. Sigh.... There's still time... I must stay focus. Yes... Focus is the word... Stay focus.. Hahaha... sounds like I'm talking to myself huh? Pls pls, don't call the mental institute. Hahaha... Anyway, I hope this test would not be hard and that my Zoo outing this Friday will be an exciting one. If I don't blog for the next few days or weeks, well, you'll know what I mean. I would probably be too busy to type anything... Ok I gtg now... See ya all bye...

Busy busy busy... Tired too
The Mixed Boy

Enmity will lead to more enmity...

As the title states, it's kinda obvious that I've been through some things that I should not hold grudges on. Hah, Monday isn't really a day for me. I got to rush for some project stuff that lead me to have dinner at 2346hrs in the night. HUH!!! Dinner at that time? Am I crazy? No, it's true. I'm now in clubroom listening to my Limp Bizkit songs, rocking away the hours.
Actually I kinda noticed something about people these days, they become very complacent and insensitive. They think they know alot and without knowing the real reason, splurt out things they aren't required to. Ya, you may wonder, it's their life, they can do what they want to do. Yes, it's ok for them to do what they want to do, then don't complain about me complaining about these people or kicking up a fuss about these f**king people.
One more thing about the title is that I would try my best to keep myself composed. There's no need for me to be angry over dumb things like this. Especially when its these dumb people. Scrutinising a fact that would not change will not prove useful to me. I will continue my life as it is. I don't need them to carry on my struggle.
Some things that aren't remembered shouldn't be remembered at all. Why bother to ask what this thing is when you bothered to forget. Hah... Well, it's ok. Whatever makes these people happy. I wish I hadn't even bothered to talk to them in the first place. Only lead me to the wrong direction. My "10-film reset" theory will be put up soon... I've concluded...*nods head*

Tired and Frustrated
The Mixed Boy

Systems rectified... Permission to carry on...

After a night's rest, everything seems better in the morning... No more shitty thoughts no more nonsensical excuses... Just plain, happy me once more... Yup have to start on my work soon. Woke up at 1045hrs when I was suppose to wake up at 0830hrs... Hmmm... Oh well... Guess the extra rest was to get rid of those nasty images in my mind. Sometimes jogs are just wonderful, they keep your mind off or make you reflect on things you don't see everyday. Alright, I'm off now... Got lots to do today...

Tired but Rectified
The Mixed Boy

Got to make a dash for a change...

You know what? F**k care about the things I'm feeling sad or upset about... F**k care about the things that will come to me in future... Just take things as they are... I took a longer jog than usual to reflect on myself and what has happened. Am I jumping into conclusions? Have I done a stupid thing? The answer is yes and no. Yes only to people who think I do but not to me. I just need another repetitive scenerio of me having the 10-film reset to conclude on my "10-film reset" theory. My life evolves round a 10 film clip. No matter what you people try to convince me that I'm not, I'm telling you, it's true that I"m bounded by this f**king curse. Give you an example. Someone once told me that she doesn't go to movies with guys especially alone with one guy. Well, that's when she turned me down. Now who is she with? Someone that I know some more. That's not the problem. The problem is that I wanted to just kill time so wanted to watch a movie. BUT I believed in her that she's not those type of girls who dare to go out with a guy. But now she dares to be in a relationship. Isn't that a slap on my face? WTF... That's the way people are ya, but well at least don't be a hypocrite. At least not an obvious one in front of me.
You always hear about girls being disappointed in guys for upsetting them right? Well, here's one clear case of the opposite case happening. I'm always disappointed by girls who upset me. Never to fail per day.
Am I in the wrong world or dimension? Why is this always happening to me? Am I so that different from people? Why? Can't handle a slightly weird guy like me is it? Am I that strange? Haha.. Whinning? You say I'm whinning? WTH If someone slaps you in the face everyday, wouldn't you feel like retaliating? But can't because you're tied down?
Enough said, I'm just going to read more of my sociology textbook to cool down. I've had enough of this nonsense.

Upset ,Angry, Tired
The Mixed Boy

A little tat too late... Promises are meant to be broken

"One man's meat is another man's poison" similar to "One man's joy is another man's sorrow". The signs of the film ending and repeating itself is showing again. Somehow I felt that I'm a little tat too late about something. Guess it's about fate. But I don't believe in fate. I believe in what I stand for, only how much. Sometimes I don't even know why I ever bother about these things. Hahaha... I can worry or be anxious about how I'm going to clinch this "deal" but it seems like I didn't have any in the first place. Guess that I still don't have the simplest thing or character everyone possesses - a soul and the word "Human".
Some people tell me to lower my expectations. But why? So that people themselves can have the room to increase theirs? How high is high and how low is low? How normal is normal, how strange is strange and how unique is unique?
If I were to tackle this case in a sociological aspect, it would seem that I have very few in-groups and even lesser groups in general. It would also catergorise me under the term stigma and of course, a deviant. But that's all perspective, to whom and at what situations. As a sociologist, we should be impartial to all views and try to understand the real reason why people react this way. I would say that it's the norm of fellow citizens to gravitate to their comfort zone. They prefer something that is commonly known in a society and try not to imbalance the nature. But imbalancing the nature is not being deviant. You are simply just displaying another subset of your beliefs and culture. So Culture, itself, changes or shapes the society. I don't mean culture as in Islam or Buddism or Hinduism or Christianity, but cultures, norms, belifs and mores. In general, we need to take a step back and take a look around yourself - ask why people do this, why are you in such a situation? Have you "upset the balance"? Sociology itself is a very easy yet abstract subject to understand.
Promises are meant to be broken... When was the last time you hear someone say "I promise I'll be there for you" or "I promise I'll tell you next time ya?" You believe in these people, you trust these people because they are someone close to you. But in the end, they play you out, they either forgotten or just plain busy, intentionally or unintentionally. So what can you do? Of course be upset and depressed - that someone you have trust in left you out in the open, never to come back for you. But what? You going to hate that person for the rest of your life? Everyone has this imaginary "trust bank" in them. Whenever someone does something good to/for you, you'll add one "trust note" into the bank. This will slowly accumulate depending on how much that person does to/for you. The opposite goes for that person who does something that upsets you - a "trust note" is taken away from the bank. So everyone is judged consciously or unconsciously no matter whether they like it or not. But only most of the time. So if that person has negative value in your trust bank, it doesn't mean anything. Doesn't mean you hate the person but only to trust him/her lesser. It may be a little abstract but this is how life actually is, it's far more complicated then most of us ever thought it would be. We always thought it would be just grow up, get a job, get a family and then pass it on. But it's not like that. It's far from that. Globalisation has made many changes to the world. One of these major changes is people being more cosmopolitian. I agree that I too am a victim of this change. But what I mean is the views of individual to individual, group to group and society to society. We usually tend to over generalise things because we gravitate to the simplest route to understanding things. We should branch out and understand a little more about such behaviours. Not to judge or adapt but to understand first, then the choosing is up to the individual. Well, there's too much of sociology to cover then just these few points...
I don't really know what I'm talking about now. Recently, there's alot of people who are not feeling happy these few weeks. I don't really know the reason but I would wish everyone to see things on the brighter side. Ya I know I've not done that either, but I'm trying to. Many times we all felt punk'd or cheated or simply just have bad days, but there's no reason to be sad for too long. Being sad for too long only promotes more sadness around you. So cheer up everyone...
One last thing is that there are a few people who had some "trust notes" withdrawn. Well TOO BAD. That's not my problem. I may lose a few friends, that's no problem. I've just have to make new ones or just simply...... move on. Most of the time it's the latter but what the heck? Better than hoping for a miracle to happen.
As what Gwen Stafani sang,

"Running, running... As fast as we can. Do you think we'll make it..."

I think it give a tinch of spice to my whole blog - I'm running, running always and for very long. But do I really make it to the 11th slide and beyond? What is on my 11th slide?

Disappointed and picking up
The Mixed Boy

Disappointing Friday

Wasn't there a time when you thought something might come out good from it? I.e. It may look strangely imppossible but you just thought there's a chance. So you just hang on it. Because you have little knowledge on what you dealing with, you just want to know about it. No matter how much you try to know or want to talk about it, there's always no response. Then the next thing you get to know is that your chance has been blown. Not that you did something but is something you didn't do. Sometimes I just think that no matter what you do, you'll lose out. It's a lose-win situation to me. I always lose. I never get a chance. And when I have a chance at something, it's always expected that I must do everything.


=~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~( I just want to be cared.... Moreover, be loved.... Not by my family only but by someone special......


Upset and Depressed
The Mixed Boy

I have a "crush" on Mendal

Oh my GOD, yesterday's genetic's test was a pure killer. not only that, it was a slow horrible kill. I was just 6 short questions for 2 hours. Yet, most of us couldn't finish it. How could this be? Is there something wrong with this picture? Hahaha... Oh well, glad that's over. Now for biochemistry test next week. Hmmm... Been so hard up onto myself, happily indulging in food without my usual jogs and playing Zero Hour for almost everyday now. Oh no, this should stop. I really must stop myself from geting involved in building and destroying things. Hahaha... Anyway, I'm not really in a very thinking mood, so I'll just stop here for now. Bye.....

Tired and blur
The Mixed Boy

Some things just don't change...

Some things just don't change at all. Sometimes I picture myself in this movie clip which is like 10 slides long. After the tenth slide, it will repeat itself. And usually the tenth slide, it's the beginning of something damn good, e.g. getting good grades or knowing someone better. Returning to slide 0 is a pain... You have to work your way across again with the same expected ending - nothing. Don't get me wrong, I'm not just being a whine here. Moreover, it's something I am experiencing and felt kinda upset about it. Nonetheless, it's nothing to be sad about. Ya I know I'm contradicting myself, but what I meant is that though it's upsetting to see myself in this situation, I'm still strong enough to continue what I'm doing. So it's not a problem to me. In fact, I'm trying to modify my pathway to hack through this tenth slide. I want to move more into the movie. I want to know that later on in the movie, I'll get to be happy. As one might say, "If the door of opportunity isn't there, then make your own door". I'm trying to make that door. So good luck to my life...

Upset yet Strong
The Mixed Boy

So Embaressing.... But appreciation dinner was FUN!!!!

It was on the Friday morning that I slept like 3am and woke up like 8am on the very same morning. I always thought I had two lab practicals on the same day because of the mid-term break disruption. I even brought my lab coat and other necessary items with me. So heavy. When I finally reached school at 0930hrs, I met a few friends who had lsm1103 practical the week before. I asked them how was the test and they informed me that there's two CAs at the end of the practical.... WHAT!!!!! TWO!!!! And I only knew there's one!!!! I forgotten to read up the announcement. I quickly referred to past year's papers but couldn't catch anything. As the time progresses to 10am, I packed up and rushed up to MD7 for my lsm1101 lab.
Once I reached the lab, I noticed something strange. Everyone don't seem to be ones I know from my own practical group. I place my bag down at my usual seat and I looked around for familiar faces. There's even someone who told e that the seat I took is his. Oh GOD!!! I'm in the wrong practical group!!! I re-confirmed myself with my friend and yes, it's the wrong practical group. So embaressing... I walked out and slapped my palm on my forehead... ARRRHHH!!! Dumb dumb dumb.... Since I've like 4 hours of free time, I might as well read up the remaining notes for the CA and have some games... I went to clubroom and relaxed.
Practical was swell until we met the last station, station 6. The TA couldn't communicate with us very well and his topic was one of the difficult ones, mammals and birds. We had a hard time understanding what he was trying to say. E.g. Instead of "big cat", he pronounced it as "bi-get" After the practical, the next 40 minutes, we were bombarded with two CAs consecutively, one five-MCQ paper on Animals and an Essay on our trip to Changi Beach. By GOD, it's like terrible. The MCQs were nothing like I've seen before, probably it's because I've only seen biodiversity once in my life and it is now.. Hahaha.. The answers were almost similar yet different. I was totally clueless... CLUELESS!!! The essay too... There were at least three hidden Crustaceans that I missed, really screwed. Oh well, glad that's over...
After the test, I rushed down to UCC for the appreciation dinner... The place is wonderful and the food was abundant. Simply delicious... There were free flow of beer too, but I concluded that it's meant by "free flow of beer, while stocks last", when the can just depleted and no one refilled them. Anyway, the fun part began when everyone left and there were still so much drinks and fruit cocktail to go around. I psychoed everyone to play "guess the mystery number"... HAHAHA... Super fun... There was one friend who drank 10 cups of fruit cocktail!!!! OOHHhHHhhh gross... And many more drank like 6. The game lasted for quite some time, even till the caterers came to remove all the items away. We concluded the game when the 10-cup champion emerged victory. Hahaha... After that, he could hardly sit down even.
I went back to clubroom with my senior to stay for the night. No one else stayed though.. So we had the whole place to ourselves... What we did there? We had a meeting with General Alexander (Zero Hour). Hahaha.. Non-stop action from 9+ till 2am the next day. That's when my senior wanted to bathe and pause for awhile. After bathing, I continued with the holocaust till about 4plus. My senior couldn't take it and slept at 3am. I was waiting for someone to msg me in MSN but seems my wait was futile. Hmmm... After I ended my session/meeting, I couldn't focus hard enough to even think about the slightest genetics principle. Oh no... My mind was full of "good area" & "Anymore projects" & "laying the foundation"... Hahaha.. Ah crap... That's when I dozed off.
I woke up to see my senior shaking me. He told me it's 0745hrs and he's going to have breakfast. I told him to wait for awhile so that I could come along. He was going to help out in some children outing project, where you bring small children out to a farm and back again to have games. Anyway, after breakfast in McDonalds, I accompanied a member of the organising team to set up the stations. Just so happend that I was there and it was hard for me to not help. Eventually we had a little fun with the stations, just a trial run to see whether everything was fine. Really reminds me of my Primary school days where I had bean bags on my head and hands and we were to balance them across an area, do something and come back again. Hahaha... so fun...
Well, fun has to end sooner or later, so I left and went back home... Today has been a very tiring day. But still a little reluctant to sleep or to do my report... Oh no, my deadline's coming closer, I should be more discipline. I guess I've done a small time table for myself, so it'll probably do fine with me... So that's that..

Tired & Sleepy
The Mixed Boy

An empty day after another...

I never knew starting on a full scale genetics report is so hard to do... I just gotten to start on it like 0030hrs yesterday and up till now, I've not even completed even one small report on one experiment. There's altogether 3 reports to complete. Before I knew it, the clock stroke 3am. WAH!!! It's really time for me to start sleeping. I have a lecture in the very same morning @ 0800hrs. There goes my game of zero hours again.. *sigh*.. Hahahaha...
*Rrrrrrrrrrrrrrriiiiiiiiiiiinnnnnnnnnnggggggggg* My alarm ringing in my ears as my mother called me to wake up. Oh GOD... Another disaster!!! It's already 0630hrs... I always keep track that bus 198 would not be crowded till it hits 7am. If it does, then I'll have to squeeze in with alot of people, which is bad. So I tumbbled out of bed and rushed to the toilet, had a bath (of course had a thorough bath lah!!!! Sheesh!!!), changed and rushed out the house with bread in my mouth, laptop on my left arm and bag on my right... *plop plop plop* The sound of my dangling shoes not wore properly on my feet. Fortunately, the bus was not packed at all.
Surprisingly, I reached school @ 0730hrs. Wah... so early. So I galavented to the canteen and gotten my cup of coffee. MmmMMMmMmmMmmm... The smell of coffee is just wonderful in the morning... Mr Peter isn't in yet.. Hmmm.. Well, it just gives me more time to irritate my OG mate beside me, hahaha.... What I'm also surprised about was that during Bio D lecture, I was wide awake throughout. Cool... It's one of those days Mr Peter tells better jokes, lucky... Hahaha...
After lecture, the empty begins. I had to go to Chinatown to run some errands before coming back to school. First I had to meet my brother before going down. I took bus C and guess what happened? I found a mobile phone!!! How many times in your life do you find a mobile phone? Hahaha... Though it's an old model, my mind raced through every corner to think of what to do with it. I was in a daze on what to do next. But it always come back to me that if I were to have the same problem, would I want the owner to return it to me? Of course yes... I just waited for the owner to call back. And eventually, her friend called. It was so happened that her friend was in the same place that I was heading too. So when I reached there, I handed over the mobile phone and told her to inform her friend to be more careful. She didn't say much, just smiled and said thank you. I just don't know why, but I just didn't feel happy after doing a good deed. I felt like I was not appreciated to return the mobile phone. *sigh* Oh well, no use thinking about it. I thought I could do some retail therapy in CT, because I felt that I was too stressed out. So during my trip down to CT, I was eyeing for any products I would like to get. All the items that I intended to get were either not so important or too expensive... WTH.. Hahaha...
Oh well, just don't buy anything then. I guess I'll skip the part where I ran my errands. However, back in school, I spent from 1400hrs - 2145hrs searching for vital information related to my report. My TA gave us a very abstract question and I nearly gone crazy thinking of every possible reason. The painful thing about the net is that it gives you too generalised info that leaves you searching a pile of junk instead. Either that or you will get repetitive answers that you already know. Even the reference books in the library didn't provide me the slightest idea on placing my finger on. Hmmm... I really need to think a little further.. A little.... But the bottomline is that it was an empty day. I accidently missed my 6pm lecture because I had a small nap which crossed over half of my lecture. Lucky it was just a guest lecturer, not important to be there. *Phew* Despite being tired, I have to start on my training again otherwise I'll lose all the precious training I had for the past 6months or so. My right foot is still sprained but only if I bend sideways, jogging is still fine. Discipline... I must be disciplined....
I can predict the next two weeks I'll be in school almost till late... Sianz... I really just hope later would be a better day. *GAMBETTE WOO HOO*

Discipline-in-training
The Mixed Boy

What's wrong with today... Though it's not my fault..

I really cannot understand what's wrong with today... I just got snapped by three girls and was kite flown by another. What's wrong with the picture? Is it just me or that people really sees me as a burden? I haven't even say anything yet... Give you one example, I saw this senior in the Forum yesterday, so I went up to her and said hi. When I moved on to the next question "so why are you here?", She replied it's none of my business... Wah, was it wrong to ask that question? Well soooooooooorry then...
After that snapping, it really made my day. I wasn't really in a very good mood. Just can't believe that I was so "pushed back" by girls, ya, only girls. Guys were all neutral with me. Arhhh... couldn't be bothered by them. I've still like a report and two CAs to study... Yet I've not started on my report.. Deadline is like next Wednesday, one week later, but I would rather want to finish it earlier to get it off my system. Hmmmm... highly weighted, should take this report seriously. Alright.. Got to go now... After 4 - 6 hours of designing my Comm Tee, I'm really exhausted...

Exhausted, drained
The Mixed Boy

Tired yet happy OPEN HOUSE!!!!

Today is one of the days that I gained alot of experience in, be it communications skills or how much more I understand the system in my faculty, I get them all in a package.

TODAY'S MISSION......
NOW LOADING. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .

Name : Mohd Johann S BMS
Matric No: ********
Password: ******
Nature of duty: Tour Guide & pamphalet distributor

Yup, rather simple jobs yet I learn quite a lot from it. In the morning, I woke up at 0730hrs. Was really hungover by this morning's Zero hour test...(For those who doesn't know what it is, it's just C&C general's Zero Hour, a game) Don't really want to move but I had to eventually. Was meeting my senior at the nearby bus stop @ 0830hrs. Prepared and ready @ 0805hrs, so I thought maybe just one game... Just one game lah... Wouldn't hurt right? Hahaha... So I switched on my desktop and had my army rolling...
OH GOD IT'S ALREAYD 0825HRS!!! GTG!!!! So I rushed down with my bag and wore my shoe. With bread on one hand and my bag on the other, I rushed out of the house. Fortunately, I met my senior on the same time as I reached the bus stop... *Phew* We went to have breakfast at McDonalds before going to school. What a nice sunny morning to have breakfast in McDonalds.. Woo Hoo...
Alright... In Science Faculty @ 0945hrs and still early... We put our bags in club room before spraying our air orange and blue and pasting our school's logo on our left cheek... Yeah... Look so patriotic but it's cool... Hahaha... After briefing, we started on our escapade to draw potential students to our booths... *targeting targeting* And who says that only the Navy gets to target at things hahaha... The experience I gained here is how to communicate with students who want to know about the major that I'm in right now. What would you do and where would you be after you graduate... Blah blah blah... Ya, get to explain the different things and experience they would have when they come into my major or faculty. The real fun is when you get to bring the people to one of the labs which is like very far away. But that's where you test yourself on how much you know about your faculty. You have to engage with them, ask them what they want to know abou the fac and what are their quries. I managed to answer most of them. Kinda felt happy that I'm able to help them. There was even a time that I did a special request from a lady in her 50s and she's using a walking stick. Her request was to bring her and her daughter to the lab and back again before 2pm for the Life Science talk by one of my professors. Well, I just said ok... I brought her there and back while carrying her bag... Wah.. felt my Karma going up like ten folds... Hahaha...
In the lab, the group get to see four stations. All four I've seen before, but I get to engage with the instructors and professors there too. Get to know more about them... Was so helpful and I get to finally know what the process of transgenic zebrafish is made... ALRIGHT... One experience point for me... Hahaha...
Oh it's 1340hrs, it's time for me to switch shift. I went to club room for further instructions. Was told to go over to MPSH to help out in pamphalet distribution. MPSH is one happening place, there's cool music, cool people, the DJ was on the roll and people just keep on rolling in. You'll get to see all sorts of people... Somehow it reminds me of my time where I was back in NS. Hahaha... Everyone with the cut hair. During my tour/duty, I gotten to know a few people, even people that knew my brother. Wow... So cool...
The day was coming to an end, everyone was rushing back, including the students mending the booths. All of them wanted to clear asap so that they can go home early to rest. My faculty had like two cars, a mini van and ample strong guys to help up clear everything. I was one of the strong guys, but because of my sprained foot from last Sunday's soccer match, I could hardly carry heavy stuff for long... By evening, my ankle was killing me. I had to stop once in a while to rotate my ankle... I sometimes feel like crying that I've gotten a sprained foot. I just can't bring myself to cry over small worries like this.
Once everything was in Science Fac, my comm and I enjoyed ourselves with some singing and dancing in the concourse. Hahaha... They had like cool songs, so it was impossible to stay still. I heard that the Dean(heard only) was treating us dinner for helping out for the whole event, so we were expecting a feast. Since KFC/Pizza Hut had to take like an hour plus to get over, we decided to have some shots with the camera........
Yeah, dinner arrived. What a feast!!! So much food but no matter how much food there is, we had three people reliable enough to clear out all the food... Hahaha... own it to them... cool... Dinner was over in no time. The only thing we could do was to go back home.. So I gotten my stuff and went home... I was too tired and my ankle hurt too much to even think about staying alittle while more.
Well I'm back home, bathed and all... Now I'm just blogging... Nothing much... Think I'll be sleeping soon... Tomorrow there's like 4 hrs practical lab and 2 hrs lecture... Arrrhhhhh!!! I want to play and sleep... I'm so tired.. Alright folks I gtg now... See you all next time.... Bye....

P.S. Oh I gotten all 7 badges from my faculty... YEAH!!!! I feel so happy.. They are very nice badges....

Exhausted Excited
The Mixed Boy

Reacnactment of the past... *smiling in daze*

I never thought I would get to see it again.. But it relived itself...

Been talking to this silly girl quite some time now, though I know why she's spending some time talking to her friends...

I still remember my ex used to play with her Piglet (from Pooh bear cartoons) and even talk to "her". She used to talk silly most of the time and she needs lots of sleep. But she has this ferocious temper when you start stepping on her toes...

Hah... Never knew it will come back to me like it was yesterday... but well it's not important, the main thing I took away from that experience was what I learn from it - Never be complacent and be more than just understanding...

Looking Afar and Dazing
The Mixed Boy

Changi Beach + Practical = GOOD COMBI !!!

I really enjoyed myself today... Though the previous day I was in club room helping out with some brochures and slept rather early, like 3am. But today's practical was so fun that you just want to continue with it...
Once we reached Changi beach, we gathered at a point to settle down. Only bringing our notes, 9 groups set off covering with a 100m radius perimeter. We covered zones such as supralittoral, littoral and sublittoral. Different zones implicate different adaptations that animals and plants have. E.g. For a Swimming crab, in a sublittoral (in the sea) zone, it's last pincers and last pair of legs have "spade" like features to burrow itself into the sand. It hides from it's predator and only leaving it's eyes over the suface of the sand, making it very difficult to spot it. It is non-ferocious and thus explains it's camoflouge abilities. It would want to hide/swim away from it's predator than stand and fight. Swimming crabs are Anthropoda and can moult. Sometimes you can find their shells in the shore lines after they have moult. However, one sad thing about Swimming crabs is that it may have a parasite growing on it. This parasite, Rhizocephalan/parasite barnacle(a female) will attach themselves to the crab's shell and pierce through the shell with it's roots. The parasite in the process deteriotes the latter's metabolism properties(I think so). Once the parasite is ready to reproduce, it will lay it's eggs in the abdomen of the crab and when the eggs hatch, they burst out from the crab abdomen(the triangle shaped bottom if we see from below). Freaky huh?!! It's like the movie Alien.. Has the same idea but only happening to the poor Swimming crab... sob sob... =~~~~~~(
Anyway, enough of crabs, after visiting the littoral zone, it was time for us to GET WET!!!! YEAH!!!! Our TA(teaching assistant) instructed on how to use the net. The net is a simple net, forgotten the name of it, but it has a pocket in the middle of it. the bottom is the sinker which has some weighted chains on it and the top is the float which has.... floats... hahaha... So we were to step on the sinker and move towards the shore, perpendicularly, until it is near enough to pull it to shore. You will never imagine what we manage to find in the net. We found like tripod fish, tube fish, scopian fish(ohh be careful.. very poisonous), prawns, shrimps, other fishes, baracuda, etc... Can you imagine how many things were under you when you go into the sea? BARE FOOTED!!! Oh do be careful of scorpian fishes, there were alot of them now because it's mating season... After placing a few specimens into a pail of sea water, we returned the rest back to the sea.
We viewed more specimens in the next station. There were cow fish/box fish, sole fish, fishes that have counter-shading abilities, jelly fish, sea urchins, etc... SO FUN!!! SO CUTE!!!! But most importantly, we never forget and did remember to bring back the lessons learnt for today. Anyway, we must bring back these important info because next week there's an essay on this... hahaha... Oh yeah, two weeks later it's ZOO VISIT!!!! WOO HOO!!!! YeAh!!! Can't wait for that day... After practical, I took the first bus back to school to wash up and rest.
My rest wasn't for long when I needed to help out some stuff for open house tomorrow. Wah.. So many things to do... Everytime I was about to leave then I was asked to help out in something.. I'm not complaining, it's hard to decline a request since they are your friends... Hahaha... Anyway, I did everything without any complaints... I went bac home about 9plus because I really needed to be home. Already spent a night in school, cannot stay over night again... Not enough clothes anyway... Hahaha...
That's all for today.. I'm signing off and God Speed...

Tired drowsy Happy
The Mixed Boy

A long night....

It's 0315hrs right now on Friday 10/03/06. After a day with AP Nga and his E. coli this time on Thursday, it really had me sleeping in lecture without knowing that it was 2hrs. Project is date due on Friday by 5pm and my team has yet to complete it soon. We camped ourselves in canteen and thought of the remaining points to add into our project. At the same few hours, I had to prepare for a meeting with my comm on the upcoming events. So many things, so little time.. Hmmm... Can't help it when time just zooms by your face without checking on you. Hahaha...

After meeting, I accompanied my director to Mcdonalds to have dinner. Not many people were around. No chicks... Arhhh crap.. So we packed our food and went back to club room. Dinner was fast and sweet. Not too long, we began folding brochures for the openhouse on the weekend. Had to fold like 1k worth of brochures. WTH~!! Well, it's no problem with me... Was waiting for my team mates to pass me work, so at the same time can just fold them brochures...

After folding like 600 - 700 pieces, we stopped to rest for the night. I turned to Zero Hours for relaxation. One of my seniors is sleeping now... The rest are still awake rushing for their projects... Isn't it a pain rushing for something that you yearn to get your hands off? Hahaha.. Hang in there guys... Alright.. I've yet to bathe, so let me like bathe now... Hahaha... See ya around...

Excited Tired
The Mixed Boy

Wah... So painful!!!!!!

Just guess what is sooooo painful... I went to massage my right ankle... Wah... Very the painful... I came back home today, nothing much though, had dinner and followed my mother to a nearby foot reflexology centre to check on my ankle. When the doctor confirmed that it is alright to conduct a massage, I proceeded into a room and waited for the massager to come (Hahaha... no better word to call the person who massages my ankle). The whole process took about 30 - 40mins. She started identifying where the pain is by stroking on the certain vital points of the foot. That took about 10mins. The following 30mins was the excruciating period where she knit and applied strong pressure on the main vein located on the inner side of the right foot. Just imagine having a very blunt scissors ad stroking it onto your leg. It feels like that... But I think it's kinda nice... Well you can call me sadistic but I've been having bruises since I was young, guess having to tend to my injuries feels like a form of relaxation. Arrhhhhh I don't really know how to explain it.. Hahaha... Anyway, the massage lasted that much. The doctor came in and applied some padding before wrapping my foot up. Yup, so today, I have a wrapped foot and it feels much better. That's that... Well, now I need to rush off to complete my project otherwise my group will be screwed... Alright, till next time everyone...

Relaxed
The Mixed Boy

Oh no!!! I'm growing fatter!!!

Oh crap... I'm growing fatter... Too bad, I can't help it. I sprained my right foot and I can't run. I can't lose the extra weight... Hmmm... =( Oh well... That means I have to put in extra effort when I recover. Hmmm... I got a surprise today, my secondary school classmate messeged me in MSN. I was shocked, but guess it's a blessing in desguise. Oh well, nothing much happening today, so my stories end here.. hahaha... cool man, you'll get your stories next time... So take care everyone... Cheers...

Looking very far ahead
The Mixed Boy

What an unlucky day... Oh well, glad that's over...

I never knew so many things could happen in just a day… Just this morning about 2am, I was talking to my friend. I was a little bored so I just wanted someone to talk to. Unfortunately, she and I could not agree with some issues and ended up quarreling instead… NO she’s not my girlfriend… Just a girl + friend… Anyway, that’s not important, the bottom line is that I had a misunderstanding with her and didn’t feel so good after that…

Ok, that’s no problem, my bad then… So with no one to talk to, I resort to playing games… I played my games till about 3 plus in the morning. Just remembered that I have a soccer match together with my brother in NTU the very same morning. OH NO!!! So I immediately pop myself into bed and started sleeping.

“Hey wake up, HEY wake up…” The sounds of my brother waking me up from my wonderful sleep.. WTH.. I asked my brother what time is it and he told me it is already 0750hrs. We were supposed to reach Jurong Point bus interchange by 0830hrs. Oh Crap… I stumbled out of bed and took a quick shower, combed my hair, put on a cap, and rushed down stairs with my bag. Had a slight indigestion but managed to eat something and drank milo. Once we reached NTU, we changed and got ready for the match. I was expecting someone to pass me a pair of boots, because I don’t have any, but no one offered me one. Well, it’s ok, so I used my brother’s street soccer shoes. The shoes formed a slippery layer between the soles and the grass, but that’s what I have left to put onto my feet. We walked over to the field just to be advised from the cricket club to move to the extreme side of the field as they have booked it for their practice. Well, that’s not really a problem. The problem started to arise when they members started moving one of the other goal posts from the booked field to our side of the field and just left it there. It was rather impolite of them to place it there. A misunderstanding broke up and well not really good language was used… We managed to break the two misunderstood people and began our match, peacefully. I was the goalkeeper and the rest had their positions ready. The overall game play was fine; the bad thing was that I fell twice, once sideways and eventually sitting onto my right ankle, the other forward, bruising my left knee. Now, I have a wound on my left knee and a sprained ankle on the right foot. I don’t believe this; I will be out of action in running for at least a few weeks. That’s not what I want.. But life’s like that… Probably there are so many people hating me that my Karma dropped ten folds.

After the match, my brother and I went back home. I told myself that I must complete at least a few chapters of my genetics. Haha… I didn’t manage to complete even 1/5 of my notes and yet slept like a pig for many hours. So demoralizing. Ok, it’s ok, no problem, just wake up and continue studying. My mom then called me to have my dinner. I went down, placed my mobile phone on my books and collected my dinner. I was about to remove the books (forgetting that my mobile phone was one it) when I heard a crashing sound.. IT WAS MY MOBILE PHONE…. ARRRHHH!!!! Do you know what’s the best part? There’s this key chain I got at the Valentine’s Day bazaar, it’s the mini keychain test tube with my name in it. It broke… IT BROKE!!! ARRRHHH!!!! Broke and the beads and plastic-glass were everywhere… I had to pick them up otherwise someone would get hurt… Guess what happened? Haha… I cut myself with the plastic-glass. Yup, my finger kept on bleeding. I quickly picked everything up and went to wash my hand. Stopped the bleeding but had to use a plaster. Somehow the keychain being broke met some bad omen or something, to me it symbolized something bad. Nah.. Nothing to ponder about..

About 7 plus, I followed my brother to NUH to see a friend, guessed I followed my brother because he needed the company. I brought my laptop just in case I could do some work in NUH. Been there for about 4 hours plus and to conclude that I really sprained my right ankle because my foot is swelling now. I couldn’t stand that long but I kept the pain to myself. Balancing with only my left leg, I stood observing our friend for awhile before going to the guest room to finish this blog. About halfway through, my brother came in and told me that he was ready to go home. So I packed up and proceeded to the Taxi stand to catch a cab. Hahaha… I have a lot of stories to tell today, the driver is an old man and he sped along the highway as if it belonged to him. I guess he was EXTREMELY tired, because at a traffic light, when it was green at our side, he remained stagnant for awhile before moving off. And when proceeding nearer to our set of blocks, his vehicle starts to jerk. Not because of the vehicle, but the driver that controls it. When my brother and I repetitively told him to turn left or right, he would first do a harsh break before making the turn very, very slowly. Hahaha… he is just tired. Hope he goes somewhere to rest before he continues with his job. Hmmmm…

Well, I’m back now… washed up and ready to do some work… I guess… Anyway, I hope I also did not forget to add any strange events that happened today. Bottom line is that it is really an unlucky day - I’m injured and yet have not done any work. Going to get screwed man… Hahaha.. Tomorrow there are lots of things to do too, especially with lab practical, lectures and then meeting. Hmmm… Oh well, life’s like that… Everyone has his or her own story to tell. Here is mine. Though it’s a painful experience but I have to bear with it. Not many people want to hear about it, so might as well type it down and let them choose whether they want to read it or not. It beats finding people to talk to. Sometimes when you have no one to talk to, the wall is the best alternative… Hahaha… Well, better end here.. No more stories = no more injuries… Hahaha… However, no matter whether it is an unlucky day or sprained my foot, I’m still running, it’s not going to bring me down… As long as I understand what I live for, that’s the most important thing…

Injured Tired

The Mixed Boy

Back to square one... Darn...

There are many things in life that will repeat itself... That's where we say "well... Back to square one.." To me, it's studies and CAs... What sia... Hahaha.. With all that Streptococcus and Neurospora crassa going around, don't think there's a time to slack and see them grow... We need to control and maintain them... Besides studies, I need to "renew" myself, to "restart". One mistake after another, but that's not a problem. Edison got like 10000 mistakes before he succeeded. I'm just being a replica of him, just that I take lesser turns. I strongly believe in what I believe in... I WILL SUCCEED!!!! My lifestyle and studies are both alike, I believe that I will excel in them and I WILL succeed... At least be an average in everything I do... There's no such thing as failure in my Vocab... What will not kill me WILL make me stronger... "It's my life... It's now or never..." That's telling them Bon Jovi... "I get knocked down, but I get up again.." Yup, Thumbthumpping!!! Nothing like believing in yourself, the sweet taste of strong willpower flowing in my mind again... Just another 18 minutes to tomorrow, I will be better again... Once fall, be sad for awhile and then get up, brush myself, tell myself "oh well, glad that's over, don't think it'll ever be my loss..." and continue running.......

Looking Afar

The Mixed Boy

Another CA bites the dust.. Cha cha...

What a horrible day man.. I just had my LSM1101 CA this morning.. Was rather simple YET I made a couple of mistakes... ARRRRRHHHHHH!!!!! I hate myself for it... Oh well... This is what a Uni student should always feel right? Hahaha.. Give and take as they would say it. Anyway, I thought I could like play games to destress myself, not only like a hour later, I was called up by my project team mates to do project... -_-||| It was ok, learnt a few stuff in the discussion, made some progress(had to do it now, it's either now or later). Yup till about 4pm that I needed to go back for my laptop.
Well, after that, I went to Club Room to relax and watch a movie on my laptop. Initial D, have you watched it? I don't know why but I have a liking for racing... I just love his turns... Super cool.. Wah... Hmmm... too bad you can't do it here. It's till about 6pm that I went over to SRC to play for games day. It's a day where my faculty can play any outdoor game that is available there. Played netball-cum-captain's ball, the rules are the same just that instead of having a person as a goal keeper, we use the netball hoops as scores. Yup, played that and frisbee. Strange enough that time flew so fast and we had to go for dinner. It was 2130hrs then. I had another 3 rounds on the track and layed down there to watch the beautiful stars... The stars are simply wonderful... Hmmmm...
Went back to Club Room and changed my clothes, we went over to Dover to have our dinner. Was super long, so far... But worth the walk. We gotten to the place in 15min time, settled down and ordered our meals. Food wasn't that all bad... Anyway, besides that, there's nothing much happening to me today... I'm at home now, very tired and almost falling asleep.. So tired.. I'm disappointed to have Voet & Voet accompanying me for so long yet not helping me... Arrhhh... Can't believe that collegen can also have hydroxylated proline and lysine. It's already over so I'm going to keep this comments to myself.. Ok I'm really drowsy and I really can't remember what I'm typing.. So I'm going now...
Sleepy and tired
The Mixed Boy

A long run... Lets run.... together...

Phew... It's really a very tiring week... Slept so little and there's still like so much more to study... WTH man.. haha... never seems like studying would be a breeze huh? But I'm sure enough when we graduate and look back on our schooling years, it would seem that what we learnt was just too easy to believe. Hmmm...
Oh well, seems like I've not blogged just yet, so I've taken a special auspicious time right now 2256hrs on 2/3/06 to type out the blog. For those who are taking LSM1101, yup, good luck for our CA tomorrow, it'll be a simple yet tedious CA. Yup you've guessed it, I'm having another CA tomorrow. Anyway, lets talk something besides CAs huh? On Wednesday I think I only remembered eating Ramly Burgers in the Science Canteen... Hahaha.. They are wonderful burgers man.. I really have to admit, I would continuously eat them if I don't have a problem with my weight. They make good snacks ANYTIME!!! WOO HOO... Hahaha...
Today, woke up @ 0745hrs, received an sms from my comm head asking whether I'll be meeting her on the very same day. Hmmm.. I replied yes and got out of bed, bathed, changed and left my house. I just don't know why I am so unlucky, I didn't really had a good day on Wednesday. I stared on my Voet Voet text book from morning till night and had a terrible headache. This morning, I wanted to deposit some money but I can't deposit. The machine gave me some problems.. Arhhh Crap... So I decided to go to school straight. I took a 198 and read my notes(once again)... Reached to school, met my comm head and we discussed about our project. I really think that the progress is alittle slow, but seems that the CAs are giving people little options to end it any soon. Hmmm... Anyway, fortunately we managed to settle for some designs for our Comm Tee. We then had branch and I proceeded to LT27 to study my LSM1101(Ya once again... crap right?). I crashed two lecturers there and then, listen to my mp3s and read my text. What a headache.. Have you had dehydration before? Ya it feels the same when you only have coffee for the day and only coffee.. It feels like that... very giddy and can't concentrate that much...
I can't say it's only because of the coffee, but it's because of the people who are treating me to coffee. Ya, I'm referring to Voet and Voet... They "treated" me to coffee and had no choice but to accept their offer. Had meals on them for the past few days.. I just wish for them to disappear soon.. ARHHH!!!!! If you think that your body is an interesting tool, just imagine yourself indulging in one of the smallest components in your body - enzymes. You'll sure cry...
To make matters even "better", AP Nga shared with us his friend, Neurospora crassa. His experience with that little guy just made my life so much better... All that cross linking, linked or unlinked genes, 2nd division & 1st division segregation, parental & unparental dutype, tetratype and many more... I hate to admit, AP Nga is a very nice guy, but his friend doubled the pain on my head. Two hours of Neurospora crassa sheesh.....
Well, after lecture, I wanted to meet a senior in but he wasn't there. So I decided to go home.. Yup back home and had dinner with Voet and Voet again.. Haiz... Up till now, I'm just taking a rest for awhile before going through the other half of my lecture notes.. Sad case for me man... LSM1101 for the past few days, yet still not finished. I'm really slow... Hmmm... Can't imagine LSM1102.. I'm reallt fretting... Oh well.. Don't think about that first, now just think of tomorrow's CA first.. Relax... Tomorrow I don't really have lessons.. only have CA... HAHAHA... So good.. I think tomorrwo I'll just relax and then evening go for Science Games Day.. WOO HOOO... Friday here I come...

Head pain pain
The Mixed Boy